Hey there !
Here I am going to talk about GOD, my life, homosexuality, what I experienced in my childhood, my blood family, spirituality, ancestors, personal development, relationships, love, compassion, benevolence, spiritual guides, deities.
I am Kadjeli Guenneguez a lesbian black woman.
I would be really happy if my story could help only one person feel less alone.
Many people think that I had an easy childhood, an easy life, that I had everything I wanted and needed because one of the most important things in my family was people’s opinion, so we were never ourselves, we were always playing a role, for example my mother has this ability to change voices according to people , ability that I copied on her . As a child, the only people you can count on are your parents, your family, the people who take care of you and are supposed to teach you the things of life.They are your pillars, you copy their gestures and since I thought that changing voices was something that everyone else was doing I did as my mother and today I don’t really know what my real voice is, Is it the sweet voice I use to talk to people outside? Is it the voice I use to chat with myself? Is it the voice in my head? I would really like to know . Unfortunately I am so used to wearing a mask that I don’t really know who I am , the avatar I create for myself to live better in this world around me has become what I identify with when in reality it’s not me , this is not the real me , you will see that in my articles I am a little bit disorganized , I write things as they come to me , I don’t want to seek perfection anymore. I don’t know if I would put titles that talk about specific subjects, because every time I find a title a specific subject i disgress. I don’t want to lock myself in a box and stick to it or put a label on me all the time. I’m not perfect but I know I’m perfect with all my defaults and qualities and that makes me a perfectly imperfect person. If you have recognized yourself just a little bit in all that I say maybe what I would write later will interest you? (English is not my first language, so I may make mistakes, but I would do my best to do as less as possible and make myself understood.)
